its been like million years havent done any typing character on this freaking blog which I dont even care about the grammar mistakes and whatsoever happens and will happen on this blog anyway. and I dont plan promote this blog on advert or anywhere. because its my personal blog. Pls ignore this blog from now.
4th august, today I move my stuff to new-temporary-house in belfast. I was really lazy to pack things up and put it in car and drive to this new house. Its not because the house isnt good, but i dont know. I have so many problems right now. So many thing to think and solve.everything wasnt go according to plan. and eveything is ruined. i really gave up to go to final year anyway. Uni problems...MARA thingy all of em make my sneezes freezzzing.
5 am, while im packing up my stuff, i found a 2 years old box. it's almost torn. i take it and turn the box upside down and all stuffs in it fall onto my floor. those things are my freshment year stuff. welcoming letter, map of University, UCAS's approval letter, recommendation letter, freshie's stuff.
Lets me bring back you guys to two years ago. well as u know its not easy to study abroad. people like me, got no money, no obsession, posession, i had nothing! yeah thats right i have nothing. i just a person who scored on my HND and succeed MARA interview. and here i am. im making this things sound simple. but pls guys it wasnt simple as what i went through. I still remember what MARA interviewer said to me... "You are not typical MALAY COLLEGE BOY!", "tell me now, why we should give our money to you? up till this moment, we didnt think it will worth it. other words you still not succeed to get this scholarship.what u gonna say bout this?"
just forget bout it..my head started to spinning like a "gasing" when i think bout it
two years ago, UCAS also gave me a lot of problems too. i dont know which university should i choose. maybe manchester....or maybe loughborough and maybe southampton,UK's no 2 engineering university. for eff sake i dont know what to choose. but all i did was gambling my future as long as the university in top ten, its gonna be okay. well thanks god, all the universities want me!!
which one to choose...? dont need to tell me now...its already wayyy toooo late!
did i make a wrong decision guys?
i screwed it up! yes right im screwed!
i dont think i gonna be a LEGEN-(wait for it)-DARY...but ill be LEGENDARY-(wait for it)-DARY
4 comments:
you should be proud at least u got a chance~~
don't ever give up if u still have a chance to solve everything~~
good luck!!! :)
in muslim part..its call as a "test" to u...if u said u "gaving up"..means u are in "wrong decision" ..Life is not really bad ..try to learn from past story my friend...soon will be Ramadhan...."jangan ponteng puasa pulak..huhu.."
thanks guys!
never give up lai :) as you always tell me this, im saying the same thing back. If you think you made the wrong decision, then do something about it instead of doing nothing cause in the end it'll be regretable..Otherwise, just keep your determination high and you'll do great in end because i do have faith in you !
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